I’m always dreaming of running hard in 2015. Not like in my sleep dreaming but just everyday when I’m out for a run or doing whatever. Or when I see other people run hard. When I ask Glenn about his workouts. When he tells me he saw some chicks doing work at 5:30am on the monon. I mean, I’m not into doing that most days at that hour, but I’m into the working hard part.
Yes, yes I am enjoying the carefree pregnant running and working out, but it’s sometimes like having the feeling you’re in a cage and you want to free and have that feeling of a good hard run. The kind of run that is intimidating to begin because you know it’s a beast. There is an excitement while it’s going down because even though it hurts real bad, you know you’re getting it done and it’s going to be a factor in making you a stronger, faster, more confident runner.
This very mild Indiana summer has been amazing for a pregnant girl who gets winded easy and gets crazy in the heat. “Hey, don’t mind me, I’m going to take a break from just standing in heat and lay on the couch for 15 minutes to regroup” (says me every time I’m outside and it’s kind of hot) I was thinking about this on my beautiful 65 degree run at 9am on Tuesday and was grateful because if it was super hot, I’d be forcing myself indoors. But I live for being outdoors when it’s nice out. Then I started thinking- holy crap this would be amazing training weather. And I thought about the insanely hot summer we had the two years. You people training hard and racing this summer and fall are lucky for this weather we’ve had- hello faster times (and not miserable feeling) in cooler temps!
I know the reason I’m itching so bad to run hard is because I didn’t really have a fall or spring race that I trained hard for because of my surgeries. I haven’t raced hard since August 2013 really. By the time I go for a marathon PR, I’ll be over two years removed from my PR. And Marshall will be 3. Yikes. I’m not one to talk about how time goes by so fast and blah blah blah, but dang.
So, I will live my desire to see my own fast times, by watching you all get it done. There are so many people I’ll be excited to watch race at Monumental. (Even if I don’t really know you, I’ll be excited to cheer for you) My original plan was to run the Monumental Half- but seeing as how I’ll be 7 months pregnant and probably run around 2:15, that wouldn’t allow me much time to see Glenn on the course and I really want to hop around and cheer as much as I can. So, I’ll probably run the Columbus Half as I’ll be at the expo reppin’ Carmel Marathon & Indy Women’s as an expo carnie anyway.
I know if you’ve been injured, pregnant or if whatever has set you back, you feel me. If just feels good to work hard. It’s that plain and simple. Life is better when you do it. There will be another day for it. For now, I’ll try my hardest to soak this up.