I signed up for Boston

I’ve been uninspired to write lately. My attitude has been bad and I’ve been grumpy. I made myself throw it all to the side and enjoy our vacation over the weekend but honestly I’ve been a little nasty.

We went to Sonoma for a wedding and last minute decided to leave Marshall with my Grandma & Mom so it quickly turned into a vacation. It was relaxing, beautiful and we had a lot of fun. I forced myself to forget about my upcoming not so exciting adventure and just enjoy not taking care of another human being for 4 days, feeling strong and healthy. I might write more about the trip later, I don’t know.
Ever since I crashed and burned at the Indy Women’s half a few weeks ago and decided I wouldn’t be racing again until after my surgery. I went kind of blah. I talked about how I might try to rally and give myself another shot two weeks later, but decided against it. I decided to step back and just enjoy running for what it is. No pressure to run fast, no stress- just fun. Just running because it makes me feel good and it makes me do life better. 
The day of the race I had contemplated  doing ended up being perfect weather and I decided to run with friends and enjoy 13.1 with no pressure. It was fun, comfortable and happy. And afterward we enjoyed mimosas and plenty of good food. Not to mention, Amy ran a half marathon PR that day in an “unofficial” race. Although I’m calling it official. The course was mapped, measured and just like any real distance race- we all went over by at least .15 on the distance. Official or not, no one runs those tangents perfectly. I’m pretty excited to cheer for friends at the Monumental this year. Amy is gonna kill her PR and I’m confident she’ll break 4 hours. Yep, it’s out there Amy. 
Mimosas and Food. HMM.

I’ve been committed to just run because it’s what I really love. 

But, I’m not good at not having a goal, while I have genuinely enjoyed running just for fun I can’t help but think about the things I want to accomplish and how I’ve got a decent road ahead of me before I can make that happen. 
Goals are what keep us going. Without goals, what is the meaning behind the workout? It feels a little  pointless to me. When I was pregnant, there was of course no time goals, but the goal to keep going and be strong through my pregnancy– it was a first so the goal was getting through it healthy, strong and in good shape. Running 3 miles the day before giving birth was something I’m still proud of. 
As I think about my recovery from the mastectomy, I have no idea what the next year will bring. And I’ve always said I’m not going to plan around what I think or hope might happen so I don’t turn things away thinking I might be doing something else. 
So my first post surgery goal. Boston?

We always say we are only going to do Boston once every 5-7 years or something. We had planned on running together in 2012, but I ended up being 7 months pregnant at that time, so I happily cheered on the sidelines.
7 months pregnant with Glenn & his parents post Boston.

There are a lot of reasons to keep it a not so frequent race. It’s stupid expensive and there are a ton of other races we’d like to venture out to. I don’t want to spend every April in Boston and drop XX dollars when there are a million other places I haven’t been. And I know it might not be a popular statement, but like a lot of races-for the most part, once you’ve been…  you’ve been. 

We all know how incredibly special and amazing Boston will be next year. We weren’t there this year and even so, I felt very emotionally connected to what was happening to the community. We’ve both crossed that finish line and we’ve both been spectators at that finish line. It hit home. I know everyone running in 2014 will be honoring those effected by the tragedy and I want to be a part of it. 
I don’t know for sure if I’ll go– I can’t predict what will make most sense for our family at that time, but at least now I’ll have the option. If I do go- I’m doing some legit long runs down in Bloomington. I won’t let the hills won’t eat me in 2014 and all monon running won’t cut it. 
Whether or not I end up going next year, when I do go again, it will be fun to run as a smarter, more experienced runner. Still a small fish in a big sea, but not quite as small as before. I’ve only run it once- in 2009 and it was only my second marathon. I didn’t know what I was doing and didn’t really know anyone there. This year I’ll know a ton of people. My running BFF Ashley will be there, along with a ton of other Indianapolis people and about a million social media friends.

Oh and it’s funny the amount of people who have wished me luck at Chicago. If you kind of read this blog and think I’m running Chicago and putting up those splits Glenn has been writing about, you must think I’m a REAL badass haha. Glenn’s running Chicago, not me! Although I have big goals for my next marathon PR- I’m not trying to jump from a 3:13 to a 2:45 haha. I will be 12 days post surgery and out there with bells and whistles and hopefully no drainage tubes. 


So for now- that’s my first “maybe” post surgery goal. My primary goal though is much more important than running any race. It’s to buck up, come out of this bad attitude and conquer this beast next week and the coming months as calmly and happily as I possibly can.
Do you go to Boston every year if you qualify? Why or why not?

Will you be there in 2014?

Comments

  1. Maybe I will go if you run it 🙂 Just go if you can, no pressure, play it by ear. But also remember you won’t be happy with yourself if you aren’t feeling well and do it anyway, then come out with a bad time. Weigh the goods/bads.

    1. That would be fun- I’m sure there will be lot’s of fun people to cheer with. If I’m able to get on track and successfully train for a PR- if I’m not able to do that I’ll just run for fun and not care about time, unless I don’t go all together!

  2. You’ll be able to set some goals for yourself soon – but you are stuck waiting until you see what happens next week. It’s so hard to deal with the unknown when you’re used to being able to plan, train and control. I’m glad you registered because it will be good to have something big and exciting to look at as you start to process your new “adventure.” I have no doubt that you’ll come out of this strong.

  3. That is very, very exciting. I would be racing Boston in April 2014 if two things occur: (1) I qualify for my first Boston during my first post-baby marathon AND (2) there are still spots open when that marathon happens December 7th. So, highly unlikely, but, hey, you never know. I am really hoping for Boston 2015!

    I love your posts (Glen’s too though! You little speed demons)

    1. Thanks Crystal! Good luck with the race December 7th!!! I’m excited to see how you do!

  4. Sending every ounce of positive energy I have your way for next week. It won’t be one of your easiest weeks, but I am wishing for you strength, joy, peace and happiness on Tuesday and all the days right after.

  5. Please open your arms and accept the biggest virtual hug from me ever. Ok, now that’s done back to business. I am so excited you signed up for Boston, you are 100% right about goals being important. I, like you do NOT do well without goals. I will be at Boston, it will be my first and is sure to be epic. I don’t know how often I will do it, but I know it won’t be an EVERY year thing.

    Keep your head up and keep enjoying the no pressure running, I am sure that will make a world of a difference with all you have going on right now- *hugs*

    1. Thank you Laura!!! haha- back to business… if I do in fact go, we HAVE to meet up rather I’m running for fun or running for time! Good luck at wine glass!!!

  6. I definitely need goals, too! Boston is so exciting! I decided not to try to get in (I’m a squeaker, anyway) because we may be trying to get pregnant again before that, but I’d like to go either way and run the 5k and cheer!

    1. Hey Laura! I totally feel you on the trying to get pregnant thing- I am hoping that might be the case instead of running the race, but decided if it doesn’t happen I’ll be more upset that I didn’t sign up. Oh the head games! Best of luck to you guys! I hope to have a huge twitter meet up if we all are there!!

  7. Sarah Overpeck

    Yay! I’ll be there in 2014!! I’m not setting a real time goal until I see how Monumental goes in a few weeks, but Boston is always a joy to run. I’m so excited for you to have this motivator as you recover from surgery. Hang in there, tough lady!

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